“I always did love you, just had too many problems.”
Ten words on ink and paper.
Handwritten by her.
Pierces my heart.
Does she know I exist? Or care? Or want me?
I love her, look up to her; want to be her.
Isn’t love also a verb?
Grandparents notice. Embrace me. Love me.
They say I am worthy and special.
I am not allowed to stay.
Said I might become spoil.
I leave home. Searching for Mr. Right.
Run to him at sixteen. Happily ever after.
Young. Naïve. Taken for granted.
Thinks to mold me into his image.
His way or the highway.
Motherhood. Baby having babies.
Crawl before walking. Stumble. Fall.
Clinging unto a strand, unraveling.
Years overlap. Encumbering.
Emotions are numb.
Hubby seeks greener pastures.
Two-timer. Tosses me to the wolves.
Water is not missed until the well is dry.
Alone. They’ve aged. Reaching out.
Across the miles, calling my name.
Vowing eternal devotion.
Grown children look back.
Open arms. Nostalgic.
Rebuild the fences.
Dying to live.
In times of happiness, embrace your beloved.
In times of calamity, hold them closer.
Love isn’t love until you give it away.
God grants life.
And second chances.
Poem written by Mary A. Pérez
15 responses to ““I Always Loved You …””
This is beautiful, Mary. Raw. Honest. Thought-provoking.
Awww thanks Gail! One never knows how others will receive something when we put our hearts out there for all to see …
I love the heartfelt and (almost) raw emotions!!! 🙂
Love you, Debbie!
This is absolutely brilliant and I totally get it (go figure…)! It is raw, it is real and I can sooo relate. It really hit me where I sit right now. Thanks for sharing! I still have to read the book and give the review. Plan to order this afternoon.
A bajillion thanks, Tina. Appreciate the sentiments and of course, your upcoming review. Hugs!
Love this poem. I hope it’s in your book…..
Hi Liz, thanks so much. The opening letter is, and the message behind this poem definitely is!
I’m happy to hear that! Can’t wait to get your book! Could you please make it out to Kenny and Liz (not just me)? Thanks, Love, Liz 🙂
P.S. I already took a picture of this poem on my iPad…..hope that’s okay.
So true , sadly so true….. Your gift for writing and expression of feelings are so deeply felt and shared. Wishing you the best always….
Thank you, Josie. From my heart to yours – one beat at a time …
The poem definitely fits your book. I can feel this too.
Thank you, Sandra. So glad you feel this.